I am one lucky girl...

I came to realize this past weekend how lucky I am.

I was raised in an awesome family, some of whom I am related to by blood, some of whom became family because we are so close.  Not many people can say that they have been friends with someone their whole life... I can say that I have been blessed with not 1, but 5 friends that I have had my whole life.  This past weekend I got to spend time with 4 of them for one of their weddings...

Eric, Holly, Ryan, Me, and Mark

Rich was the only one missing this weekend...but he got married in March so most of us were together then.

Diana, Rich, and Me



Eric is the next one to get hitched...and his wedding is next year.

Then, the wedding that I am most excited for....Holly is getting married!  She is the little sister that I never had...and I am absolutely HONORED that she asked me to be her Maid of Honor...I am looking forward to planning her special day with her...and celebrating with my lifelong friends again :)



Holly and Me

As I go through my life...no matter how difficult things get...when I feel like I have no one left to turn to...I know that I can rely on these friends to get me through.  I could not speak with them for years, and I would have to do is make a phone call and they would be here in a flash.  Those are the best kind of friendship...the ones that come easily and that you don't have to work hard to keep.  I love my friends. :)

“Even though we’ve changed and we’re all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we’ll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we’re not still friends.”

Random ramblings for the day...

"I promise..."

"You can trust me..."

"I love you..."

These are phrases that should not be just thrown around, they are words that pack a lot of punch and you should never say unless you fully intend on following through.  Unfortuately, most of us have come to learn that not everyone can fully understand the power that these words possess.  Not everyone realizes that there are still some people in the world that hold these words close to them, and do NOT just throw them around trying to make someone feel good.  That is what leads to this rambling of the day.

Most of you did not know me before the beginning of this year, so you do not know exactly where I was in my life when P90X came into play.  I was absolutely head over heels in love.  He was the first guy that I could actually see myself being with forever.  He was amazing, and so was his family.  I felt like I fit right in with them and they made me feel welcome.  More than anything else though, he made me feel so good about myself I could not even belive it.  He helped me through my home buying process, and was even set to move in and be my roommate in December.  Then, out of the blue the second weekend of December things changed.  We had a great weekend, his parents were in town and they finally met my parents.  We all discussed our New Years plans because we were all spending it together here in Pittsburgh.  On Sunday night, all that he said was "I can't do this right now" and just like that my world fell apart.  I couldn't breathe and had no idea what I was going to do.  Not even my closest friends could comfort me.  It was the worst that I have ever felt in my life.

I had most of his stuff until February, I finally packed it up and told him to pick it up because I needed to move on with my life.  Obviously he did not care enough to even give me an explanation as to why things fell apart so suddenly like they did.  He picked up the boxes that I packed and it was the most awkward 45 minutes of my life.

Well, now it is June...and I thought that I had moved on...the feelings were gone and I could finally breathe again and feel like myself.  Then I found out that he is seeing someone and that waive of hurt and disappointment all came back.  Way to ruin my day...

But right now, at this very moment, I am making a promise to myself.  No more dwelling on the past.  I am moving on with my life.  I am in better shape than I ever have been, I have an amazing group of friends, and a fantastic family.  I would have never gotten through today if it were not for Kati, Lacey, Kristin, Mike, and Rachel. 

So from a girl that has been hurt, torn apart, and slowly put herself back together again...PLEASE DO NOT use the words "I promise...", "You can trust me...", and most of all "I love you..." unless you mean it.  Because when all is said and done, it is when we think of those phrases that we hurt the most...

xoxo